Co-Sleeping

So i admit it, we co-sleep. 

Yep all the time.

Every night. 

It started when i went back to work, working until 2am and living off 4 hours sleep with a 6 month old and 2.5 yo meant i did what ever i had to to get sleep. 

I actually love it, i love having my babies so close to me each night. I do worry though, i worry about what 'damage' it is doing to my kids. Is it making them too dependant? Is it not allowing them to grow as individuals? There is so much negativity around co-sleeping that i do question myself on a regular basis. However i also have a massive underlying paranoid fear about my kids being kidnapped. If they are in their own room on their own someone could take them without waking me, someone could come into their room and get them and i may not even stir, and that keeps me awake at night on the occasion they have slept in their own beds, crazy i know... 

They each have their own beds and their own rooms and we ask them regularly if they want to sleep in their own room and occasionally they will so it's def not something we are forcing apon them, i really don't know what is right or wrong when it comes to this though.

As always i come home from work, throw the doona off and climb into bed, one particular night though melted my heart when i threw the doona off to see them holding hands, so sweetly, sleeping like angels but connected. It was so hard to climb into bed and not just stand there staring at them. Love and its sweetest. 

I guess no one co-sleeps with their parents forever, right? Aaron co-slept with my MIL and my sister co-slept with my mum until early teens and both of them are strong, fiercely independent, relatively well adjusted adults so i hope that co-sleeping with my babies is the right thing to do at this stage of life. 

~xox~